War and Peace

Weekend ambling in
Wings are lightened
Belligerence kept away

Prayer to Devil

Diabolical thoughts, evil fury in brain, feel like praying to devil for a change to break the routine.

God will bring only what is good for you

Devil can bring what I feel is good for me aint it?

Darwins from facebook

Somewhere in your life you have a dividing line. One one side of this line you make decisions in harmony with your relationship with God. And on the other side you make decisions without consideration of this relationship. This isn't to say that your decisions are un-Godly but rather that these decisions are based on logic, conventional wisdom, societal preference or simply learned behavior. The dividing line simply helps us visualize that such a division exists and allows us to examine our actions.

As you look back on your life, you can see that this dividing line is not stationary and that it has moved position through different phases of your life. At some points you have been very mindful of God in your decision making and possibly in others you've been not so mindful. Why we have a dividing line at all? If God is inclined to get involved in matters as light as snow and vapor, why we banish Him from our everyday decisions?

However, the problem we each face is our desire for God to be absolute. In the spectrum of possible and definitive, we hold that God is definitive and without any degree of confusion. We know this not so much because it is specified in scripture but rather because it is innate. As human beings, we have an inclination that God is absolute and thus we seek a definitive relationship with Him that is free from doubt. But when we look to scripture to represent God we find variance. Ranging from different translations to different interpretations over time, scripture is never held to be universally understood or agreed upon (despite many people being convinced that their interpretation is true).

Accordingly we hold that God is absolute but experience that our relationship with Him is dynamic. Despite God being absolute, our experiential relationship has much to do with us. Like all relationships, we find that this relationship requires both sides to contribute. And if we haven't quite figured out this relationship, we create a dividing line for those times when we don't think God can, should or will help us make a choice.

Obviously the conclusion is that God is available and desires to help us in matters both big and small. But that's easy. The harder question is why we haven't applied this in our lives already? Are you too stupid, lazy, sinful or ignorant to accept God's outreached hand? While I understand that society would like us to believe this, I do not believe this to be the case.

The dividing line is actually a representation of consciousness. One one side, we have Mind consciousness based on logic, reason and critical thinking. And on the other side we have Spiritual consciousness which requires nothing more than a connection to God (logic, reason and critical thinking are not necessary here). We well understand Mind intelligence for our brains are wired to deduce answers from available information and personal experience. But Spiritual intelligence delivers conclusions without such facts or experience as it is pure understanding. When it comes to God's influence on our lives, we don't deduce that a decision is right for us... we just know.

And thus when we live our lives within the singularity of a Mind consciousness, we find that factoring God's input into our lives doesn't compute. It is as if our brain computer can't understand the divine programming language. Where we seek facts, figures and definitive logic we receive intuition, feelings and gut instinct. And when our Mind intelligence can't process, it resorts to making decisions without God's influence.

Instead we are called to step into Spiritual consciousness and to trust God. This step is a leap of faith for Spiritual consciousness is devoid of the logical framework that our Mind consciousness demands. And thus we find ourselves stepping out of the comfortable and into the unknown. This is precisely where faith applies. It is here that we choose to make decisions and to trust God.

Sri Chinmoy

"No mind, no form, I only exist;
Now ceased all will and thought;
The final end of Nature's dance,
I am it whom I have sought.

A realm of Bliss bare, ultimate;
Beyond both knower and known;
A rest immense I enjoy at last;
I face the One alone.


I have crossed the secret ways of life,
I have become the Goal.
The Truth immutable is revealed;
I am the way, the God-Soul.


My spirit aware of all the heights,
I am mute in the core of the Sun.
I barter nothing with time and deeds;
My cosmic play is done."

- Sri Chinmoy

Love of spirit

What matters is our spirits perspective on a situation, which is more spontaneous and optimistic in nature.. especially in love. No matter how many times one has denied you, the true feeling will always go back and will always be as fresh as the moment.

Another beer ride

Beer in heartbeat, wind on my hair as I cross 100kmph.. one doesnt think of next moment and bottle becomes your best freind...One can feel the broken heart being gushed away in the wind. For a moment one closes the eyes and takes in the moment completely. Alcohol has this unique thing of getting to that corner of our brain and killing the ego which is probably why its most sort after after churches and temples

Memoirs on life

Now, before bed, had a strong beer with my pal ahead, standing on a chill Sat morning(at 5am), on his last day in office. We gulp down a few good ounces along with the memoirs, The dawn looked so beautiful with a high on our head. We talked about making money, changing jobs, buying lands which finally boiled down to living life. Finally the dawn took over us, birds flying over our head on the first streak of suns ray. People jogging around to ensure they dont die of a heart attack today. When I dropped him at his home and got back home, the biggest relief I had was the fact that I could empty my bladder which was filled with barley.

If I could only empty my ideas on living, I would probably live properly.

Lonely

Today a freind of mine asked me(via SMS) why we feel scared to be alone when we came to this world alone and we know for a fact that we are going to leave this world alone? We are always in search of security. Therefore we try to belong to a group. Even a group is lonely as it is divided in terms of ideas with other groups. Hence we are never together as a whole. To handle his insecurity,man has created God, society, culture, nation which gives one security in a psychological way. I replied to her SMS as above.

One can spot a tree standing lonely in the midst of a vast field. Its roots are deeper. Free to expand. Nothing interferes in its growth. It gets to absorb all the minerals without distinction of good or bad. It chooses with its natural instinct as there is no other roots for the tree to follow. There is no patterns established for the tree to follow. It derives its strength from its immediate surroundings. It understands that a lonely tree is vulnerable to an axe or storm. Therefore it derives its strength from this very vulnerability. One look at the tree, one can spot the divinity surrounding the same which normally one doesnt find in a herd. It knows for a fact that it belong to the ground underneath and the vast sky above. It belong to the whole.

One can feel lonely in a group and also can feel being part of the whole while sitting alone. The question is therefore not why one is afraid to be lonely, but rather why one is unable to identify with the whole.

..I still dont know...

During deep pain and extreme happiness, there is a vaccuum created in ones mind. Something which tells the futility of this whole feeling, something which expresses . Some call it numbness. But its not just numbness. Its something more. Still dont know what it is although it is with one forever.

Love today

Love today is about searching for that something which is lost. Hidden on that dark corners, out of the shambles, it shows up. It aint perfect as it has your face.

Long live life

Life needs only your involvement. Its a place of zero rules. While a great mass is heaved to ground, turned to dust, the same is born again in wombs and branches. Life's beset with life and nothing else.

Prayer

Sometime one doesnt believe what he sees and hear. He wont believe in any sensations. He simply trusts his feelings and shuts his eyes, ears and sensations. Even when he is falling he simply places his trusts on this deep feeling. Its a prayer.

Intelligence

Our thinking becomes clear when one does his act without expecting a reward
Or not getting carried away by the ridicule. Intelligence is at its best when this happens.

Talking philosophies

We are just ordinary people
Talking philosophies of what others have said
Mere stenographers or recorders
We really dont have any thinking of our own

Chances

When one leads a life of spontaniety, there is no question of chances.
Chances are left for that moment.
Look at a kid playing. He is so full and present
He simply "is"
What chances is he looking for?

Desires, Death and Living

Is it worth to die for things which dies off?

When one dies to the every day desires

Isnt death and living ONE?

The moon and the mind

Philosophy is of the mind. Beauty is when you are a lunatic; when one loses his mind, when there is no me. Do look at the moon today and lose your mind.

First time

The other day a friend asked me: Can you look at the world as though you are seeing it for the first time, hearing its sounds and sensing its smells for the first time? Like the newborn opening up its five senses to its surroundings? Without searching for words in one language or the other to represent what you see, hear, smell, taste or experience by sense of touch so that you can store it up in your memory? Without naming anything to reduce the real into symbols? Allowing the whole of it to flood into you? Just try it. Its a wonderful experience.

Saw this post on one of the comments on my uncles poem. Find it perfect today, everyday...

Road trip-Bangalore

Topple and rumble, spine o mine

Dust and filth, eyes o mine

Rattle and honk, ears o mine

Wobble like a drunkard

Body o mine

Life

Corpse in flowers, aboard a truck,
Drums blazing and crackers resonate
Death and mirth, holding hands.

- Saw a truck loaded with flowers and men surrounding a corpse. The entire Indranagar(100ft road) was forced to witness this huge celebration.