Another beer ride

Beer in heartbeat, wind on my hair as I cross 100kmph.. one doesnt think of next moment and bottle becomes your best freind...One can feel the broken heart being gushed away in the wind. For a moment one closes the eyes and takes in the moment completely. Alcohol has this unique thing of getting to that corner of our brain and killing the ego which is probably why its most sort after after churches and temples

Memoirs on life

Now, before bed, had a strong beer with my pal ahead, standing on a chill Sat morning(at 5am), on his last day in office. We gulp down a few good ounces along with the memoirs, The dawn looked so beautiful with a high on our head. We talked about making money, changing jobs, buying lands which finally boiled down to living life. Finally the dawn took over us, birds flying over our head on the first streak of suns ray. People jogging around to ensure they dont die of a heart attack today. When I dropped him at his home and got back home, the biggest relief I had was the fact that I could empty my bladder which was filled with barley.

If I could only empty my ideas on living, I would probably live properly.

Lonely

Today a freind of mine asked me(via SMS) why we feel scared to be alone when we came to this world alone and we know for a fact that we are going to leave this world alone? We are always in search of security. Therefore we try to belong to a group. Even a group is lonely as it is divided in terms of ideas with other groups. Hence we are never together as a whole. To handle his insecurity,man has created God, society, culture, nation which gives one security in a psychological way. I replied to her SMS as above.

One can spot a tree standing lonely in the midst of a vast field. Its roots are deeper. Free to expand. Nothing interferes in its growth. It gets to absorb all the minerals without distinction of good or bad. It chooses with its natural instinct as there is no other roots for the tree to follow. There is no patterns established for the tree to follow. It derives its strength from its immediate surroundings. It understands that a lonely tree is vulnerable to an axe or storm. Therefore it derives its strength from this very vulnerability. One look at the tree, one can spot the divinity surrounding the same which normally one doesnt find in a herd. It knows for a fact that it belong to the ground underneath and the vast sky above. It belong to the whole.

One can feel lonely in a group and also can feel being part of the whole while sitting alone. The question is therefore not why one is afraid to be lonely, but rather why one is unable to identify with the whole.

..I still dont know...

During deep pain and extreme happiness, there is a vaccuum created in ones mind. Something which tells the futility of this whole feeling, something which expresses . Some call it numbness. But its not just numbness. Its something more. Still dont know what it is although it is with one forever.

Love today

Love today is about searching for that something which is lost. Hidden on that dark corners, out of the shambles, it shows up. It aint perfect as it has your face.

Long live life

Life needs only your involvement. Its a place of zero rules. While a great mass is heaved to ground, turned to dust, the same is born again in wombs and branches. Life's beset with life and nothing else.

Prayer

Sometime one doesnt believe what he sees and hear. He wont believe in any sensations. He simply trusts his feelings and shuts his eyes, ears and sensations. Even when he is falling he simply places his trusts on this deep feeling. Its a prayer.